Standing here holding the microphone up to my face as the words flow through me, I am here in front, yet in secret. Lord, may I worship with a pure heart and may Your words change a life. The eyes of the people bore into me, but I remain immovable for God. Lord, help me to not perform but to react to Your prompting and to Your will. These words are sincere and are prayed often.

The words keep coming, but I'm still in front, yet in secret. Lord, Your Spirit flows through me like fire and consumes me. I can see Your face smiling from above as I continue to worship with all that I am. I can feel Your tender embrace as You give me strength to carry on.

I come to the place where I can barely utter the words because I am so surrendered to You. I am in front, yet in secret. I can't see the eyes upon me because I'm in the secret place of the Most High. I don't want to leave the special time. I just want to worship with all my heart.

I am still in front, yet in secret. I shout the King's name and I dance a dance for My God. I sing a bold song of love for Him and I fall to my knees in complete adoration of Who He is. I surrender it all. Tears flood my eyes and fall to the floor below, as I cherish my salvation and thank Him for His awesome power in my life. My skin is flushed and my body trembles as I remember that day long ago and as I continue to let His Spirit flow. I refuse to quench Him and I encourage all to go on in worship and praise to our Saviour in heaven. Holy is the Lord! Thank You for the cross Lord! The lyrics continue to surround me as I grasp onto My God and refuse to let go.

I am in front, yet in secret. As the music finally dies down, the words continue to flow from me as He gives me utterance. An encouragement, a sweet song of praise, a song of joy, a word of love, a spiritual psalm; and the worship continues to go to Him from all who are open.

I am in front, yet in secret. Do I know what is happening all around me? I can only see God as He coaches me and guides me to the next level of worship. I can only feel His warmth as I continue to press into His wonder, His power, and His Lordship. Alone with Him is so fulfilling and renewing that I don't want to leave. In every word of worship and praise, He restores, refreshes, and rejuvenates His people, because they have been obedient and submitted to Him. Even as the music stops and message of God is preached to all, I know that in my heart the worship will not stop - because true worship begins in the Word. Worship is a lifestyle and not just a weekly thing. Worship is 24/7 and meant to be given to God in everything.

Just because I have been called to be in front doesn't mean that I'm looking for recognition. It just means that God has placed a special talent and a purpose for me to fulfil for Him in this way - it is never about anyone else, it is always about God alone.

I know that in front is how I am when I am alone, because I live my life in the secret place shouting and singing praises towards My Father in heaven for all that He's done and all that He will do - falling on my face in worship for my Lord because of who He is to me...

I am in front, yet in secret, but it doesn't take the front to send me to the secret because the secret is where I reside with my Most High.

November 25, 2003 © A.L.R., 2005 (all rights reserved)